I sent a picture to Daniel of how bloated I am, and his response was “Well babe, I don’t think your period can happen with that baby in there”.
Haha, I didn’t realize I was THAT bloated, thanks babe. hahaha.
Everyone who ever said that Daniel and I wouldn’t make it to a year. For everyone who thought Daniel and I would have another relationship like our pasts relationships, which would fail and be completely toxic.
There are things in life that you just know, some things are certain from the start. When your heart tells you that you need something, whether it is ideal at the time or not, you just know you’ve got to work to fix whatever might be a little off kilter.
I knew from the beginning that Daniel was something I needed, he was someone I was instantly drawn to. We’ve had our blow out fights, our arguments, the typical pointing of the finger. We’ve had our weak times, and our stronger ones too. We’ve been jealous, and nosy. It’s all been there, just like any other growing relationship, we have done it all.
There is one thing that I certainly know, and that it is that I can not imagine my life without him in it. When I am so mad that I want to walk out on him, because I am always impulsive.. I just take a minute and then realize how unhappy, and incomplete everything would be without him.
Even though we don’t sleep together every night, and that I do everything on my own during the day, while he is working his ass off at night. I don’t mind waiting it out with him, because from the start I knew that I wanted to be in it for the long haul.
So, upon reflection, to anyone who thought Daniel’s past would echo onto our present.. I hope you’re sitting there, mad as hell that we’ve proved you wrong.
I am the happiest when I am with him.
I can’t imagine being with anyone else.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you <3
I made dinner tonight. I was not hungry, so I didn’t have any. I figure I’ll take some tomorrow for lunch, and you can eat it when you get home from work in the morning.
It’s really simple, and I tried to make something cool, but It sucked so I threw it away..
On the other hand, I know you work insane hours, and I am lucky to see you for a little over an hour after I get home from work, only to not see you again until that hour, after work, again.
I am happy that you are preoccupied with work, and your goals have most definitely improved since I have met you. I am sad, very very sad, actually.. sleeping without you every night.. Though you already know this.
I miss sleeping next to you, and waking up with you. I miss being on the same schedule as you, and being able to grocery shop, and enjoy the day together. Most of the time I am outside walking the dogs, or doing random things on the mot beautiful of days, I just wish you could be with me.
I know that things change, and not everything is always perfect.. like our work schedules for example. I feel like I am missing out on you, or that we are missing one another in passing somehow.
I just want you to know that I love you, and I realize that things won’t be this way forever. When the summer comes, I cannot wait to house hunt and find the most perfect place for our little family.. I can’t wait to add to our family, and I most certainly can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
You can count on me to love you, always.
Anyway, when you get home, there is food for you.. and I love you.
and I miss you.